I Surrender

Dear Venki,
I hope you are hale and healthy. It has been a long time since I spoke to you. Eight years!! Though it’s not long compared to the twenty one years we had together, it has been some crucial years in my life. I am sure you have been watching me consistenly, not wanting any updates from me really.

I have missed you a lot in spite of all the anger and disapproval I spurted on you before I left. Now I realize that it was more due to lack of acceptance from my side that I was blaming it all on you. In your absence I learnt a lot of things by experimenting life, sure enough there were human errors both computational and logical. It was not really bad after all. I have coped to come all this way, without you but faired well.

I turn to you now since what started as some childhood role play and went on to later years as an intense and confident belief is the ultimate truth, which I recognize now. I discarded something precious I had, at that moment of irritation and delusion. You never walked away and so ‘I want to come back to you’.

With you by my side I can rise with mountains, be the breeze, flow through glinting streams and accept the scorching sun. With you by my side things will be easier and lighter.
I once again surrender.

(Letter to my longlost, sweetest and beloved friend.